its been a while.

just in case anyone ever reads this, or even sees it, i thought maybe i should writr or say something. the problem is i been feeling so uninspired about life for so long now, i havnt had any will or energy to do anything morr then what i have to do for my kids, and act like im not a fucked up, almost lifeless person. if i didnt havr those 2 young kids (17) & (10) years ild, i cant imagine what else would be keeping me here anymore. i just sometimes sort of frrl like ; ok, ive done & experienced a good enough amount of life, and being how ive lost all other passion's, i think maybe ill get out of here. well i hope you Allan are doing o.k, and i hope to hear from someone soon. troy